When I joined my twelve-step program a couple of
years ago, my sponsor told me to stop weighing myself. Too many people,
including myself, rely on a number to determine our self-worth. She was right
and I stopped. What did it matter what I weighed if I was physically,
emotionally and spiritually healthy?
Weight isn’t the only number we obsess about these
days. I don’t know about you, but I check my Amazon and Barnes and Noble book
rank at least once a day. Sadly, I’ve noticed my moods are affected with the
ups and downs of my ranking. It doesn’t matter that I’ve gotten good reviews
and accomplished something that I never dreamed possible. I’m focusing on the
number. What does that number represent to me? It’s more than merely an
indicator of book sales. To me, it represents a long ago buried anxiety of
mine- the need to be popular.
Middle school was a difficult time for me as an
adolescent. The pressure to be popular ran rampant throughout my network of
friends. With a bad haircut, braces, thirty extra pounds and acne, I had no
chance of being popular. By the end of seventh grade, most of my friends
dropped me like a bad habit. I found a new group, kids who didn’t care about
designer labels. They accepted me, bad skin and all.
In high school, I found my clique. We were the
theater and choir geeks, not much different than the characters you see on
“Glee.” Popularity was irrelevant. I had enough friends and boys to date to
keep me busy.
As an adult, I thought I had outgrown the issue of
popularity. Then I entered the world of publishing. All of a sudden, I’m
worried about people liking me. Worried about what people think of me. What is
my Klout? What is my page ranking? How many Twitter followers do I have? How
many likes do I have on my Facebook Page? What is my Alexa score? How many
books have I sold?
These ranks, numbers and scores shouldn’t matter to
me, but they do. These days, being an author isn’t just about writing and
selling books. Now, we have to worry about what I call the likeability factor.
Agents and traditional publishers don’t want to take chances on newcomers
unless they can prove they can sell books. They have to have a “platform.” I
thought only nonfiction authors were required to have one, but I soon learned
that I was wrong. Agent Rachelle Gardner
wrote that authors can build their platform through speaking to large
audiences, having high profile visibility in the mainstream media or having a
strong internet identity. In other words, they’re expected to be popular. It’s not
enough to have talent anymore. Writers must further their own careers by
becoming a household name before they even publish a book.
An author’s popularity isn’t based on reality, but
on the audience’s perceived image of the author. The crazy thing is that the
majority of writers I know are introverts, people who rather curl up on the
couch with a good book rather than schmooze with the masses. Instead of working on their novel, they’re
blogging and tweeting and creating their public image. I didn’t play the game
in school and I’m not so sure I can do it now. I’ve struggled too long and too
hard to accept that I don’t have the control. Nor do I want it. I handed it
over to my higher power over two years ago. Though it may hinder my career, I
won’t give in to my urge to play the popularity game. I’m going to accept the
things I cannot change and change the things I can. I’m going to stay true to
myself and not worry about my numbers.
After all, what’s in a number?
Shelly Bell received her Bachelors of Arts in Social Work and a Certificate in Women Studies from Michigan State University and her Juris Doctor from Nova Southeastern University, Shepard Broad Law Center. Practicing law since 1997, she specializes in corporate, environmental and employment law as In-House Legal Counsel for a scrap metal company in Detroit. On the side, she dabbles in horseracing and crematory law.
She and her husband have two children and reside in
the Metro-Detroit area, where she reads on her Kindle each night when her family
falls asleep.
A recovering compulsive overeater, she wrote A Year to Remember to share her
strength and hope with compulsive overeaters and food addicts everywhere. A member of Romance Writers of America, she
writes both women’s fiction and paranormal romance.
A Year to Remember
is available as an e-book from Amazon ow.ly/93MzC, Barnes and Noble ow.ly/93MBE , and Soul Mate Publishing (for iBooks and
other e-readers) ow.ly/93MEv.
It will be released in print this summer.
Follow Shelly at her website and blog at www.shellybellbooks.com. And though
she proclaims not to care about popularity, she can be found on Twitter as
ShellyBell987, Facebook as ShellyBellBooks, Goodreads, Shelfari, Triberr,
LinkedIn, and Pinterest.
6 comments:
Good advice, Shelly. I am one who feels the time spent on all of the social networks (the list of which keeps growing) has to be taking away from writing time and ultimately hurts writers.
Maris, my mother commented on how much time I spend on Twitter and the computer in general. I told her it was part of the job. I agree that it's taking away from my writing time. We have to find a balance, but it's never easy.
I just started on this new journey of social media. I agree, it can take time away from my "real" writing. But I'm enjoying the journey so far. Note to self (again): set time limits!
Great post - I guess we're all in this together.
Great post Shelly. I can't imagine how I'll be when my first book comes out later this year.
Golly, your are right. It is a number.
And junior high were the worst times for a lot of us.
As far as social media: I embraced it. It's what we have to do nowadays.
I've been in Florida for four days and my mom keeps telling me I'm addicted to social media. I told her its part of the job. But there are times I'm checking my stats and obsessing over them. That has to stop! Thanks everyone for commenting!
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